Friends!!

I am a typical Libran. It takes me a lot of time to make friends. I like people who are simple. I am allergic to show offs and cunning people.

First of all, in today’s world, it’s pretty hard to find such people and then it takes me a while to trust them with my inner thoughts. By the time I am convinced that I have made a good friend, its time for the person to move on. At least that’s what has happened to me since childhood.

I found it very difficult to make friends even in school. I used to take a lot of time in knowing and trusting them completely. When I would make a close friend, something or the other would happen that would distance us. This has not happened just once, but many times. A close friend of mine shifted to another city, one left school to join a boarding school somewhere, one just disappeared into oblivion without enough reason, and another one went abroad for higher studies. Once my friends moved away it was very difficult to keep in touch with them. We exchanged letters with fervor for some time, but then just drifted apart slowly. I am in touch with a few of them even now through emails, but it’s not the same anymore.

I can never fathom why this happens to me again and again. My husband tells me that friends are there in our lives to just give us company for a while. They come into your life for a purpose and then disappear once the purpose is solved. The only permanent friends you have are your parents and your spouse. I know he is right in a way, but I still miss my friends. It still hurts every time I lose a friend.

A frustrating experience in office

If someone sits and listens to all the bullshit that goes around the office about data, stats, processes, implementation, quality, and creativity, he/she will realize how much is being spoken about it, and how less is actually done. All of them pose as if they know what should be done and are experts in it.

There is no process documentation and nobody has a clue as to what should actually happen. All they do is guesswork. If it works, great; otherwise, it results in some re-work - offline. Nobody gets to know what happened to the quality and timeliness that is preached on the organizational level.

They allocate you to some project for the entire day, but you have nothing to do. Somewhere, some team is working on the project and you are still in the project to clarify their doubts and just be there incase they need you. You can’t fill in that time as ‘No Projects – Self-learning’ coz you actually are in some project. If you put in your days work in some weird category under your project, the Project Manager rejects it saying it is unnecessarily increasing the project cost.

You try and raise something as an issue in the team meeting; you get the work to improve the process. You feel glad with the new responsibility you have been given. You slog day & night to establish what you think should become the standard in the organization. The next day you try and get it approved. Guess what’s the reviewer’s reaction? “No No No No, you don’t understand. This is not we want. I asked you to document the stuff coz I thought you were senior enough. But this is really bad work! This is shocking! Please re-work on it and send it to me.”

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